Saturday, January 3, 2009

2008....2009

Happy new year! Hello 2009. Yeah right. I know I am a few days late to say that. I didn’t visit my blog because of the long holiday. Long holiday means no fast internet connection.

By the way, before I close 2008, let me share these things:

2008 is not that an active year for me in the ministry. I regret that. Still, God allowed me to put that year with an activity worth remembering –YPF day 2. This year is the year that the 2nd YPF day was held at the New Church. From 78 in 2007, the delegates who attended went to 103. Praise God for that.

Still though, in all of those labors in the New Church, I still think of the Old Church, when will I be allowed to go back. When will I finally be allowed to go the Old Church and have my public apology? They banned me for the sin that I have admitted for a long time. The world got smaller for me when I was banned because I was banned in one of the biggest, most influential Baptist churches in Metro Manila and even in other parts of Luzon. Then, with advices from Pastor Abel Bernardo, Dr. Gil Aranda, and Dr. Ed Laurena, the Old Church pastor finally gave me the go-signal. December 31, New Year’s Eve, I had my public confession in the Old Church. Before that date, the New Church Pastor officially announced that I will be pulled out by the Old Church. That happened December 21, I turned over most, if not all, of my materials to my Assistant, Bro. Joeffrey “Joef” Saralde. Joef is now the new YPF President. He is the 2nd YPF President since its organization by your laborer in 2006, and I believe by God’s grace that he’ll deliver and he’ll be a better President than yours truly. The practical thing is to stay in the New Church. Majority of the youth leaders and even church members trusted me. New Church Pastor trusted me to the point that he rarely questioned the YPF activities. As far as I can remember, he didn’t even scrutinize them. He trusted me. However, if I didn’t go back to the Old Church and have my public apology, the ban will prevail even until the day I die. In addition to that, there will be no closure of my case if I refuse to cooperate. Yes, my ex girlfriend and her mother has the hand on my delay (God will take care of them. Especially right now, I forgive them. Besides, break ups are never happy. They cause pain on BOTH sides unless if you never loved the person. With those premises, I say that we have no choice but forgive EACH other. I can even shake their hands and look them straight to their eyes) My priority is for the ban to be lifted so that God will bless my life more. God blesses the offerings of people who fix things first (forgive or ask forgiveness and be) and cleans up the messes he caused or did. Well, maybe you don’t find the words convincing. Euphemism is not my forte.

The Old Church accepted me with open arms again. Some youngsters even hugged me. Still though, I never regretted what I have said in the past two years. The Old Church Pastor said during my public confession that the church people intentionally did that as a form of discipline. He said that truly it will make me feel that I am not truly loved. Oh well, have it his way. Yeah right. What I know is that if someone is truly repentant, that is enough reason to talk to the fallen brethren. Besides, they can never blame me. They should have listened to my side. No, the church should have given me a chance to tell my side before they execute the excommunication. I have said my side before they executed it, but only the Old Church Pastor heard it. Yes, Pastor James knows my side very well, but he had done his part, and I am very grateful for that. That’s why they can never blame the bitterness that I went through. Bluntly, it came even to a point that I said to myself that it’s not worth it. I mean lowering down your pride is not worth it.

I can’t blame the Old Church. It’s written in 1 Corinthians 5. Normally, in cases like this, you’ll take both sides, ESPECIALLY THE WOMAN’S SIDE. Why? Normally, women are the losers in the sin of fornication. If a woman is a virgin before the fornication was committed, it would be a traumatic experience for her if she’ll be left by her boyfriend. Worst, if she got pregnant, justice should be given to the woman. The woman should feel that justice was served on what happened to her. That’s the purpose why church discipline in matters like fornication is usually heavier on the part of the male church members. The woman loses many things on her in fornication.

I have no problems regarding that. I agree with that. I am fully aware of that. I assume my ex girlfriend is aware that’s how things work in the Old Church. That’s why she uses that for her advantage. Because she has the last say if am truly forgiven and I am finally allowed to go back to the Old Church, she utilized that AGAINST me. Oh well, it’s the past. Let go, let God.

I still believe that forced marriage doesn’t automatically give justice. It will be a nightmare on the long run UNLESS both parties willfully agree, not because the guy will face excommunication or shot gun will be put in his face if marriage was not served. Bluntly, shot gun marriages are selfish on the part of people doing it. I was glad with the Old Church Pastor decided that I can just have my public apology AND not marry her. Why? I don’t see it as the solution. I see it as a recipe for disaster. Still though, the Old Church Pastor’s decision and my return last December 31 is all JUST IN TIME. That’s how God moves – just at the right time.

My wishes and advises for my ex girlfriend this 2009? I hope and pray that she had changed for the better. She should not control people. She should not use people. She must avoid habitual lying. She must learn to truly love her partner, and it must be proven by giving him enough room for him to grow in the career that HE chooses. Love her present boyfriend. The “give and take” should be done by BOTH sides, regardless of how much money or education you have. BOTH parties should adjust one to another. It is a wrong thinking that the richer party should adjust more. It should be BOTH. Be considerate. Don’t manipulate your man to the point that he will end up taking all the consequences. I also thank her still for finally allowing me to go back, but she should not do it to other people next time.

Now that the Old Church Pastor declared my case a closed book, I will abide by that. It was closed, also enclosing half of the truths. It’s okay, God has been good to my life.

2008 have been a year of learning experience for me. It is also the year that God, just as always, manifested His workings on me. I will never forget the people who became part of my life in that two years of excommunication, especially the New Church. Especially Amie, now my girlfriend since August 30, 2008.

This 2009, I hope that I can be a better business manager, better in handling my money, better in handling my time. I hope that I can serve God and at the same time earn back the respect of my Mother and Big Brother AC. I know that I can be a business manager AND a preacher at the same time.

Again, welcome 2009!

1 comment:

camery said...

Glad everything works out for you this new year. Looking back just proves God wont give you anything you can't solve or handle. If its seems very hard he always lends a hand through angels around you.

Bout the boy and girl not treated the same way thing, its more of a cultural thing. Its the way our culture has brought us. My foreign internet friends had a different culture in theirs and somehow its what things are at our work.

Best wishes to you and Amie :)