Wednesday, October 15, 2008

positive perspective in an unexpected place and event

One time in the University library, it crossed in my mind to visit my former classmate who happens to be working also as one of the Library staff. He told me that he’ll go to Sagada, the place that I am very much interested to go ever since I heard the name and saw it on TV. I told him that time for me is not as flexible as it was few years back. I added that I wasted those privileges. I added that the privilege (of going out of town with Mom saying it’s okay) is gone. Then, I began to share. I told him my experiences. Yes, I shared the “classic 2006 event” that changed my life, and my church membership (on a temporary basis for reasons that I have shared to you many times).
As I share, he can’t help but share his optimism. However, one statement of his struck me. He said, “She (my ex) made your life colorful, and you should thank her for that”. Yeah, for all of those OBJECTIVITY JUNKIES and MATURE EFFECT MOJOS, you surely know what that means. (Note: Samuel heard God’s still small voice when he’s a kid, and Moses saw the Burning Bush when he’s 80. Does that mean Moses is more stupid than Samuel? Does that mean Samuel is MORE MATURE than Moses? Individual differences, remember?) Still, let me share this one MY STYLE.
It’s a new, yet so old perspective. That former classmate is right: my ex-girlfriend made my life colorful. I know that I realized it too late than some mature mojos and objectivity junkies. Hehehehe. She made my life colorful. I discovered my weaknesses further. I also discovered my strength that I didn’t see before. I discovered, through the New Church, that I am capable of organizing things up. I discovered that I can organize Inter-Church activities with only at least 15 young people. This couldn’t have happened if I was not excommunicated. Well, maybe some people will say that it happens because of “Romans 8:28” (see the Bible verse for details) (funny, they forgot to mention Isaiah 55:8). They can say what they wanted to say and it’s their right. However, I can also say what I wanted to say sensibly. Foolish for some, hypocrisy for others, and tough for few, but this is true: I should thank my ex-girlfriend for giving me a life full of colorful learning experiences. Because of that, I thank her. My love and patience was push to the limits because of her. I thank her for that. Even if she hardens her heart to the next level to the point of blocking of supposed come back to the Old Church, it will just give me room to be a better person. When the room for vengeance, hatred, and pride was exhausted, at the end, I’ll still bring with me the medal of God-given wisdom from experiences. Whatever she will do to me, it will just give me more room to improve myself as a person.

To my ex-girlfriend, thank you very much. You improved me in ways that you didn’t know. I hope you’ve also your learned the way I learned mine.
Besides, I’m 28 years old. If God wants me to live until 70 or more, I still have many things to learn on this life’s journey. So many things God has in store for me. Yes, the desire to be back in the Old Church is there, but this time, I’ll leave it to God more than ever. I’ll no longer do those follow-ups. I have demonstrated my intensions and desires to them; I think those pleadings are more than enough for Old Church Pastor to see.
Again, thank you very much to my ex-girlfriend. It was a nice lecture etched in gold. You made me a better person!

Monday, October 6, 2008

Finally...after almost a year

After almost a year when I passed my proposal to my Department Chairman, my Special Project was now in University Printing Press. According to them, it will take ten (10) working days to finish those 8 copies. Well, it still depends on the Press’s priorities. If there’s no other pending papers, theses, dissertations, etc., it will be more or less 10 working days. I hope and pray that there will be no hassles in those times so that my graduation will be turned over to the Department, then to the University Registrar.

I thanked God that I’ll finally graduate March 2009 (there is no graduation march in May 2008 and October 2008. Thus, I will march in March 2009. If that happens, I stayed in PNU for 6 years! No wonder I’m more at home with PNU than Adamson U! I only stayed in Adamson for 4½ years.

Still though, I have two more stuff to prepare: the Young People Fellowship Day 2 (YPF Day2) on November 9, and KOMIKON 2008 on November 22. Now, these two made my head spinning. Good thing sweet girl Amie is a supportive girl. Another thing to consider is that since my Master’s Near Finish, I must now focus on the family business, just as Mom is insisting. Actually, I do believe that things will turn out fine by God’s grace. However, I admit that this is no walk in the park. Priorities should be made. Time should be maximized. For others, they may suggest that I have a last minute back-out from KOMIKON 2008. After all, it’s just a hobby. However, the issue here is being responsible enough to fulfill your commitments in the best way possible. All other things in mind, like learning other musical instruments, etc. was put into stand still for the mean time. In fact, if you’ll visit my bedroom, you’ll notice there are unnecessary papers (all from graduate school). I told myself that I’ll dispose them after my special project was turned over to the University registrar.

To those who know me, please do continually pray for me to be as organized as possible. After all, real maturity is measured by how responsible and accountable a person is, EVEN IN WORDS UTTERED (Thus mature people don’t spread words, then will twist it when the going gets tough or just to “smell good”….er, wait, why am I mentioning those baggage filled statements? Hehehehe).

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Memorization

The Sunday before the last one (September 21), the new church pastor assigned me to recite 200 Bible verses right before the congregation. It all started when he asked the congregation if anyone of us memorize 200 Bible verses (because according to him, he can memorize at least 500 Bible verses, especially during his youth ministry days). I raised my hand. He then challenged me to do it right in front of the congregation. Honestly, I don’t have the exact count of Bible verses that I can quote right from my head. It was just a rough estimate. After all, there are 66 books in the King James Bible. If you can memorize at least two verses per Bible book, then it’s already 132 Bible verses. In addition, one of the activities during Prayer Meeting and Sunday Evening service is Scripture recitation (at least one Bible verses. I admit though that I tend to repeat particular Bible verses because I didn’t make time to memorize Bible verses that I still didn’t memorize).

I admit, it is easier to memorize, BUT my problem is which book did a quote Bible verses came from. Thus, I had a written guide. After all, this is God’s Word. I must not take God’s Word lightly. I must state the exact location of a specific Bible verse. In addition, it will be my first time to recite Bible verses in front of the congregation.

Then, last Sunday (September 28) came, and it was during evening service. The pastor called me up to recite the Bible verses. Because of time constraint, he told me to memorize 50 Bible verses. I recited around 61 verses, all in the book of Psalms only! Of course, I have with me a written guide – a list of Bible chapters with their verses. After I recited it (I tell you: your heart will also pound big time if you’re in my shoes), a youngster also recited around 60 Bible verses (even more I guess). Another youngster said that maybe that youngster was challenged. After all, she recited them without any written guides. I really don’t know that youngster’s motive in doing a memorization. I have my suspicions, but I have discouraged myself from being suspicious. God will reward that youngster. Praise God for giving me a chance to memorize Bible verses.
Memorizing Bible verses is the 2nd to the lowest when it comes in levels of thinking skills (the lowest being Knowledge, and next to comprehension/memorization is application). If that is the case, I can bluntly say that memorizing the Bible is a good thing, but one should not be boastful that he can memorize Bible verses. In an academic viewpoint (not in a Christian), Bible memorization is the 2nd to the lowest when it comes to thinking skills (if you’ll apply one psychologist’s theory). Thus, a Christian should not boast that he can memorize Bible verses. After all, how can a Christian apply something that he doesn’t know? As a Christian, you can only consciously apply a Biblical principle if you know where in the Bible did that principle came from. If you’re applying a Biblical principle without knowing the Bible verse, you’re just being TOO dependent (note: it’s not wrong to follow your Pastor and your Youth Leader. My point is WRITE DOWN what Bible verse your Pastor and Youth Leader is using so that you yourself can defend your Christian faith) on your Pastor and Youth Leader. Being a Youth Leader, it is not a good sign if youngsters rely too much on me and not read on their own. After all, I’m not a Youth Leader forever and New Church Pastor will not have the physical strength to preach and utter Bible verses forever.
Why am I saying this (you know me: I write long post, that’s why I can’t be a writer on broadsheets. He he he he he)? Normally, when someone said that he memorize many Bible verses or even memorize the Philippine Constitution (for law students), people will accuse that person of being boastful. Yes, the tendency to boast will always be there (I myself tend to feel that way also), but isn’t it better to just let God reward that person (who memorized many Bible verses) according to that person’s heart? By doing just that, you’ll unload yourself of some unnecessary baggage which has items called “suspiciousness”, “pessimism”, and “judgmental attitude”. Besides, a fellow Christian should instead give glory to God that a fellow believer can memorize many Bible verses. In addition, that person should be encouraged to keep on memorizing Bible verses.
By the way, after the Bible memorization, I felt New Church Pastor was encouraged a bit. Not only that, his mood changed positively. In addition, he encouraged and challenged all the congregants to memorize Bible verses. I say “Amen” to that! Indeed, God was glorified, and it should be that way. I was happy that Sunday night because my intention why I accepted the challenge is to be a blessing and at the same a positive role model for youngsters to do the same.
To all Christians who can memorize many Bible verses: keep it up. Only one reminder: now you can memorize those verses, you must meditate and apply them in our everyday life. Again, keep it up!